7.4~7.8
I’m currently having trouble defining the change in my project.
I’m uncertain how fantasy and magic tricks can create new change in both areas because performances such as this already exist, and they already create excellent change in this world.
I have tried to pick out a specific group of stakeholders to specify the change, such as Chinese high school students(which is the group of stakeholders for the intervention on May 13th, where I created a dystopian world based on current reality in the Chinese education system). But it detoured my project to education rather than fiction, which caused huge confusion in my audience.
I am trying to plan for interventions but finding it hard to take action because the research question hasn’t been completely defined. I’m currently planning out interventions on fantasy and magic tricks separately, and try to piece them together like jigsaw puzzles in order to create something new.
Jordan Peterson once said, “You’ll have to sacrifice the pluri-potentiality of childhood for the actuality of a frame.” I think it is similar with projects. When starting a project, I really enjoy the endless potential and as time went on, have spent too much time mourning the fact that I could only choose one area to work on. It will happen whether we want to or not, and the main difference is whether I choose this limitation in time, or let it get take me unaware.
But I’ve already chosen my limitation. I’ve identified as a writer of fiction and comic artist, specifically on the area of fantasy. What stumped me was that, I don’t know how fantasy can create change, new change, to this world. And that was why I kept adding elements to it that was inside my comfort zone, like result-based education, because I was a student in the majority of my life.
I’ve had a paralysing fear because I was unable to define the change of my project and therefore since the start of independent study, I was hesitant, even unable, to create interventions. However I needed to undertake one soon to get the project out of a stalemate.